For some time now I have come to the realization that I want more out of life than what it usually offers. Whether that is completing my simple homework assignments in a science class or ending a mediocre friendship, I want every aspect of my life to be as real as possible.
Everyday we wake up to engage in specific motions and some of these have certain expectations that are often never acted upon. Such as liking that famous person’s Instagram pictures wishing you had a life like theirs (when they have 10 million more followers than you), skipping class and expecting to ace your exam tomorrow, hoping some day you will land the career of your dreams and never moving forward after you realize what it takes to get there, and more. This used to be me and sometimes it still is. In the past two years, the pace of my life has started to move quicker than I could handle. Because of this I have learned that time is of the utmost value to me including my happiness. In the second half of last year I was having the ultimate mental breakdown where I was willing to drop my friends, work, and all of my involvement at school to live a stress-free and happy life. Interestingly enough, these were the aspects of my life that I had accepted in the first place to create my happiness. But I powered through with the help of those around me and survived yet another year of community college.
In one of the links at the end I posted the article, "How To Achieve Work-Life Balance in 5 Steps". It made an especially accurate point that I am still learning to practice in my everyday life: "Everything is not equally important. Do fewer things and do them well". Looking at both the aspects of time and attitude, I realized that I have too much to offer at this point to accept mediocrity any longer. I would like to be more and as often as I can.
Now, this may sound surprising but I am not a perfectionist. I know when to throw in the towel, but usually after countless refusals. I would like to decide to not let my obstacles define me but guide me to learn from them. It is inevitable that you will fail for the 7 out of 8 times you try. But if I was a perfectionist I would not admit my failures, I would never grow, so being perfect (even if I wanted to be) would be impossible.
As a millennial, I admit to the desire of instant gratification. I think this desire for more stemmed as a young person growing up in this specific society. I do not want to settle for mediocrity in any aspect of my life or myself. And to me that does not mean I am selfish or unrealistic but I just know what I want out of life, I always have.
Accepting this I have chosen to be more than what others think I am (usually based on personal appearance) and what I think I am. I want more than what I think I can offer, not perfection just more. As well as more happiness, more opportunities to grow, more endlessly real relationships with those I encounter, more thoughts in my head that are so strong they feel like they are screaming. And I feel that once I can have that and once I can put those thoughts into words then I will be more.
Which is one of the many reasons I have decided to finally begin this blog. I have always wanted to share my thoughts with the world no matter how quiet or small they were, I just never had the push to do so until my young adult years. It is not my expectation to inspire or motivate any reader because that can only be decided on as an individual. That’s why one of my three topics of discussion is “Insight” (click link to see definition). I cannot change anyone nor do I want to, but I would like to provide commentary to my thoughts and insight to anyone who may have the same questions as I do. So I hope that I can talk about these specific subjects that may plague many of you now or will in the future.
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Mondays have been known as the ugly step sister of the seven days and I would like to turn that idea around so that we can all have more positive perspectives for the beginning of the week. I hope now your Mondays are a little less dreary than usual; you can also click the links below to get even more positive juices flowing.
I have decided to be more to those around me, in my school work, in a professional setting, for myself, tomorrow, now, and always.
- The Big Chill Kitchen Scene
- Twenty One Pilots- "Guns For Hands"
- "How To Achieve Work-Life Balance in 5 Steps"
- "2 Ways to Beat Your Fear of Rejection, Backed by Research"
- Adult Jazz- "Hum"